No More Apologies

I am an authentically creative person.
Just ask my friends.
I see, express, and think differently than most others around me.

My 9-5 world is all business and serious.
Just ask my colleagues.
We work to create business solutions despite the obstacles of a repressive culture.

I spend my day balancing between these two selves.
If I lean too far right, I suffocate and become cynical.
If I lean too far left, my work is not understood.

I live to create.
I can create business solutions or I can create story images.
But I must create.

Sometimes I am apologetic for my creative self.
Sometimes I feel failure in not having become all serious, grown-up, and business-like.

This must stop.

This is the 9-5 dogma.
This is not my authentic self.

My creativity is my key to my success.
My creativity allows me to solve problems that others can’t.
When I am creative my spirit soars, when I am not my spirit plummets.

Creativity is the conjunction of the words create and activity.
The opposite of create is to destroy.
Does this mean that the opposite of creativity is destructivity?

Yes, I must be serious about my creativity.
It is life-or-death for my soul.

There are no more apologies.
There is only one self.

Create: produce, generate, build, construct, shape, form, forge, result in, cause, produce, foster, sow the seeds of, contribute to, establish, found, initiate, institute, constitute, inaugurate, launch, set up, form, organize, develop.

Creativity: inventiveness, imagination, innovation, innovativeness, originality, individuality; artistry, inspiration, vision; enterprise, initiative, resourcefulness.

Serious: solemn, earnest, grave, somber, sober, unsmiling, poker-faced, stern, grim, dour, humorless, stony-faced; thoughtful, preoccupied, pensive.

Destroy: wreck, ruin, spoil, disrupt, undo, upset, put an end to, put a stop to, terminate, frustrate, blight, crush, quash, dash, scotch; devastate, demolish, scuttle, sabotage.

Destructive: devastating, ruinous, disastrous, catastrophic, calamitous, cataclysmic; harmful, damaging, detrimental, deleterious, injurious, crippling; violent, savage, fierce, brutal, deadly, lethal.

Fern Abstractions

Fern Abstractions
Fern Abstractions by I Nancy, on Flickr

My collection of abstract light paintings is growing faster that I had anticipated. Is this just eye candy or have a struck on to something with core and substance?

Here I was on a local hike. I didn’t spare the gear for this hike as I was headed for a local waterfall: camera, 24-70mm, 17-14mm, ND and polarizer filters, tripod, shutter release. Now bear in mind that the definition of a water fall in southern California is somewhat loose. If there is water (any water) and it falls (any distance), it is a waterfall. It is often not very dramatic. The waterfall we were headed to was on the side of Boney Mountain. During the summer months it is but a trickle, during the winter just a bit more. Yesterday the water was flowing well enough but it just wasn’t pretty – just water falling down big gray granite rocks. No particularly pleasing lighting, mosses, or plants; only big brown sycamore leaves caught in the crevasses.

What I found myself attracted to were the big ferns growing on the right side of one of the pools of water. There was a nice contrast between the greens and gray/browns and a good flow of movement created by the fronds and the base of rocks and grasses. I wanted the movement to mimic the flow of growth but also catch some of the jaggy nature of the ferns. It was rather shaded, so the slow shutter speed was easy to get with a 3-stop ND (notice actually that I am at f/4 – the 3-stop almost being overkill). Standard post processing was used, adjusting the tone curve and a bit of saturation.